Hey! This blog post is a follow up to my recent youtube video I uploaded x
This video really was just for fun, I think its great people are interested in where I'm from and it makes me laugh when they have no idea what my background is.
It's somewhat nice to know my facial features confuse the hell out of some people!
But in a sense having such a mixed background has been fun. I've been able to experience such different cultures and visit my family in different parts of the world.
I think in a sense its weird that over the years more and more mixed race people are appearing , due to the fact of planes etc.
Honestly it wouldn't surprise me that in 200 years time we all end up the same colour. You can't be racist if you all look the same ;)
Racial Tension
I've been blessed to never have experienced people being horrible to me because of my ethnicity.
Only once when i was 7 I think, I boy told me to "go back to where you came from, you paki" to which i replied "I can't go home yet, my mums still at work"
Of course at that age I had no idea what he meant or what a "paki" was and I'm sure him being 7 as well must have just picked up that phrase from his family, and of course assuming anyone brown should be spoken to like that.
Accepting My Colour
Believe it or not, from a young age I have always wished i was a lighter colour. I think it must have been the fact that at school i was the "only brown girl" and it used to bother me a little bit. I used to ask my mum "mum how come your chocolate and daddy's white?"
When i was little i would have given anything to be a white, bright blued eyed blonde girl.
I don't know why, in my family it was never mentioned that being brown was a bad thing, in fact being a different colour was like having different hair colours or eyes.
However...
I had a boyfriend at 14, and i remember not being able to meet his friends of family. The reason being? "oh they don't really like people like you...."
Looking back at it, I was stupid to be okay with that?
But in my mind, that was a valid reason not to meet me.
If anyone ever uses your outward appearance as a negative thing towards you, then just cut them out of your life. They are just sad people who see life in one shade.
Now I embrace my colour. I really do. I don't have to go tanning because I'm afraid my legs will look too white in a dress, I can wear bright colours without worrying about looking like a ghost and I don't ever get sunburnt!
I honestly believe that as you get older, you become more comfortable in your own skin.
Beauty come in all shape,sizes and shades.
Whatever your background, colouring or ethnicity just embrace it!
